Do you ever have the feeling that you've been stepped upon, taken for a fool and spat in the face?
well. today is not a good day.
don't know.. started the afternoon in a very foul mood today.
no particular reason.
just felt very vindictive and frustrated all of a sudden.
life has been good, yes, but its just THAT part.
the rest sucks. seriously.
a mental timer constantly screaming in your head and counting down days to imminent doom is not very easy to ignore.
with the warnings and the bells there, getting down to work is the next big difficulty.
i just can't seem to get down with it.
i'm just hanging on to a hope that i'll just snap awake and get things sorted out and clarified.
well there you have it.. i just went through a special complementary parent's worry session with dear dad.
well.. actually.. i'm frustrated not because they're wrong and i'm right and all so glorious..
but because i know their right and i'm not doing anything about it to stop meself getting distrated.
yes, surprise surprise, joshua lim gets distracted.
yes i know the stereotype you people have, nerd, mugger, good to take advantage of, go ask him to do all my homework, bug him for he looks harmless and since he looks like he fills his head with a sack of books and nothing else, that he doesn't have a life, can't find anyone, weak, disturbed, yea rip him off since he looks like a freaking somebody you can bloody take advantage of.
well to all you piss poor attitudes out there, this "little bugger of a nerd" does have a life, and feelings too incidentally. and YES, i freaking get distracted. doesn't mean i smile like a fool everyday means i'm someone you can screw around with mentally. chances are you'll just screw yourself over all the same in your confusion and end up looking all stupid. so i have an advice. why don't you all just take that piss poor attidude of yours, and shove it right UP your ass.
i'm done with this bullshit.
i'm sorry. that had to come out.
well i'm distracted all righty these days,
and everyone seems to be preoccupied with... i don't know.. everyone else?
well sometimes i just wonder why i bother about other things that don't concern me,
other people's problems and stuff.
i've tried not bothering, but i just realise that i'll become miserable not making people happy again.
i can't NOT bother. its just not me. so rest assured i'll not STOP bothering.
i'll just be the same throughout. just today a little extra spice.
anyway, i'd guess i'm gonna push forward as usual.
i still have others to push to go forward, others to keep encouraging, to keep showing that i BOTHER.
seriously i don't usually expect an appreciation,
but sometimes you just need one just to keep you smiling you know?
well guess its onwards then.
have to get back to the books.
never giving up,
the Lord will be OUR guide.
amen.
sorry for the outburst.
post by joshua at 8:08 AM (x)