reading helter skelter

Good morning all.
just rolled out of bed, literally.
seeing that there's really nothing i can do to get back into dreamland after being "rolled" out,
might as well do some early morning reflections.
haha.



well been giving myself 3 days now just to catch up on sleep, been sleeping at 9 and neglecting books just to reduce the eyebags and recharge.
today would be the last day definatly.. i finally had a chance to complete 12 hrs of sleep in one shot! haha... so i think my mind should be ready to roll on one last time towards the os!



things i must improve this last month:
1. Stupid handwriting.. yupp.. never imagined i would really get shot for it.. scored 15/30 for compo with a big HANDWRITING behind and with many giagantic circles around the paper.
a lesson learnt for me definatly.. i had it coming too.. haha.. soo.. gotta buck up on that..
but still, with God's infinite grace, i managed to snag an A2 for Eng.



2. Buck up on Social Studies and Lit.. oh my goodness... that IS a challenge.



3. maintain the rest. telling myself everyday, don't be too cocky. don't be too lax.



actually that is my greatest fear now.. being too lax and cocky.. gotta keep a wary maind about that. hmmm..



to those that did well, (up to their standards)
Great job guys! and do keep it up! its just barely one more month to the end of it all.
don't get too complacent and relaxed and just continue to keep up the pace and drill harder to acheive better! jia you! haha..



to those that did not do so well, (not up to their standards)
hey. you guys cannot give up! one month left just concentrate on what needs to be done!
put everything else aside, and focus on the main thing, which is to improve and understand the mistakes made in the prelim! do jia you! and work hard!!



The end is coming.
oh goody goody...

post by joshua at 6:11 PM (x)

Greetings all.

So, the prelims are over, the one day of rest is over, what's the next big thing out there??

without needing to say anything, that would be the return of the scripts.

i must really say, and REALLY REALLY THANK GOD for His Grace right at this moment in time.

I got shocked at MANY papers. PLEASANTLY shocked.

Its really a clear cut miracle and sign what happened these two days for my results.

At first i really expected a 74, 73 A2 for most of my papers cause of the few questions that i knew was screwed,

but currently my hopes to VJ for the first three months haven't been crushed yet!

Praise the Lord! i tell you i'll be doing flips if i get in for first three months with my L1R5 still.

Many people i've come across these few days, all have different reactions to my result and my plans to head VJ- wards.

MANY encouragements! thank you all for really believing in me and continuing to push me.

there's the other extreme of reactions.

some "screw you"s, "wah lao"s and "smartass"s

haha. well.

hmm.. so my R5 so far is 7.

really hope Oral saves me by pulling to an A1.

haha.. Combined Humans was a BIG surprise..

though i'm quite stung by the b3, but hey it was a BIG improvement from the previous C5s.

ah well, can work on that.

i actually scored equal for Lit and SS. haha.

Chem another surprise. expected an A2 or high b3.

was already thinking of counting Physics,

but by God's grace again, A1.

haha.. the rest was peachy.. yupp.. but can do better definatly.

what's left, PHYSICS and COMPO.

lame.. COMPO??!!

darned LPM refused to give out the compos,

and left us on a cliff hanger as bad as watching lost.

so now we're biting our nails,

HOPING and PRAYING nothing goes wrong,

and they would moderate comb. hum. and eng =p

post by joshua at 4:22 AM (x)

Through these misty eyes
I see lonely skies
Lonely road to babylon
Where's my family
And my country
Heaven knows where I belong



Pack my bags tonight
Here's one jacobite
Who must leave or surely die
Put me on a train
In the pouring rain
Say farewell but don't say goodbye



Chorus:Seagull carry me, over land and sea
To my own folk, that's where I want to be
Every beat of my heart
Tears me further apart
I'm lost and alone in the dark
I'm going home



part of the song by rod stewart, EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART.
love that song. felt a connection there somehow.
he's groovy.



well,
such kind of songs do resplendantly well to me these few days.
good for those who can interpret it.
even better if anyone can understand and empathize with me.
the rest of you, its up for your interpretation.



sorry, i wanna be vague today.



cheers.

post by joshua at 5:27 AM (x)

STUPID STUPID BLOGGER.
don't you just hate it when such things happen to you??
you type so long, then the %&%&* page "NO PAGE FOUND"
its darn unnerving.



anyway, like i typed sometime ago,
finally back, i am, apologies for another period of absence.
was struggling to complete the finally gruelling part of the PRELIM,
which i am happy to announce is FINALLY over!
haha.. i survived it, thankfully,
however with a little bit of "injuries" you might call it.
haha.. according to my nice tuitor, she claims i'm breaking up,
and if i don't go and relax soon i'll " overdrive"
haha.. thank goodness for her. she's nice.
anyway reason for that was cause the flu finally caught up with me,
was feeling feverish the whole of yesterday.
went for tuition and got my tuitor concerned.. haha..
she sent me packing straight home to rest,
and suggested i sleep, shop, enjoy.



which i did incidentally today, after chemistry.
ran home, dropped stuff and ran out again.
caught JTMD with my class. haha! it was a cool outing, though some were at cine due to mis comm. about the location.
in the end 12 of us turned up at the cathay;
naomi, chanel, sel, carissa, winner, nat, issac, ben, stanley, jane, brandon and i.
haha.. well, after that was retail therapy..
the gals bought a bomb, while i got myself a nice ring and cross and eyed a nice blazer.
haha.. well, they were cheap, but worth i guess, seeing that i finally found clothes to match the acccesories.



ah today was just swell, a good destress for the finally run.
life begins tomorrow.
prepare your books again folks,
today we pretend the Os are over.
haha.
cheers.



ON THE REDCARPET.

Joshua Lim and Ayumi Tokifloweruni

post by joshua at 6:43 AM (x)

A Tribute to Valerie Chua.

was born, 230990

Although she is still with us,

her presence is best not felt.

Amen.

Haha!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

HAPPY BIIIRRTTTHHDDAAAYYY

O---LD VALERIE...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

so sorry for the continuation from previous post.

thought the photo didn't compliment it!

so... i've edited it! it looks nicer!

don't complain! haha

cheers you.

post by joshua at 9:07 AM (x)

Joshua says:
Dad, mom, can i take up fencing after the os?
Dad, Mom says:
hmm too expensive, boring sport, why don't you just play soccer or basketball like what GUYS do.
Joshua says:
what you mean by THAT? i don't find it boring, and definatly its as tough as soccer or basketball.
Dad, Mom says:
hmmm.



sigh, that got shot down as usual, along with the idea of photography, saxophones, tango and biking.
that what do they mean by "what guys do".
hello. i may have different preferences, but trust me, these things are as tough, or even tougher than the average sports.
hmm.. i kinda feel let down everytime this things happen.. oh well.
i keep telling myself, spare a thought for the cost.
yes, i might admit, photography, saxophones, tango, biking and fencing are in the uprange,
but you can't possibly let price stem passion right?
oh maybe i'm just fitted with the wrong CPU personality chip.
well, i'm still not gonna back down on fencing, or on tango after the os! haha.. one of them maybe.
gosh you guys must think i'm one weird kid.



oh yes, in appox. 16 minutes time is someone's birthday.
let me dedicate this part of the post to her.
valerie chua strolled into the band room 3 years ago, on a monday practice, alone, QUIET and most definatly not knowing how 3 years later would be so so so different.
well, it just so happened on that day i saw her, and well, i turned to my senior, and i said........
val you know that part! haha..
well, anyway, the story goes on.



she, was posted to join the saxophones, a prestigious section in FSB, her honour obviously!
it was a shock to me! cause i never knew someone so ____ would come to our section!
(haha! that part was kidding! i never had any thing against her coming!)
so we became friends on day during practice.
the rest, they say was history.



Dear valerie chua of the COOLNESS.
It has been a great pleasure and pressure knowing you all these years.
indeed, i never knew what was coming whence you stepped through those doors on that faithful day 3 years ago.
i never knew that that ____ girl would be one of my closest friends, best section and later on class mate ever.
here's to the 3 years of fun, sadness and, (on your part) the process of acting cute.
here's to the years of fun with WEI MEI, ZL, ZR and gang.
here's to the many silly hours of R and D fun in your house gym.
here's to the ever lasting friendship of You, joa and i.
here's to the outings, big, small, boring or downright amusing with so many many people that we knew.
here's to our friendship, may we never forget that day in the band room and each other.
and most importantly,
here's to Valerie Chua.
Happy Birthday sport!
stay cheerful always.



cheers.

post by joshua at 8:34 AM (x)

Hello all,
apologies on the "your blog is as dead as a fish" logo on my blog.
haha. yes jane, message taken.



I see a clearer sky already!
the papers are technically over! today was the last killer, physics
which incidentally turned out to be quite a softie..
haha.. whee.. so its one more bio prac and MCQs to the end of the PRELIMS.
note. end of the PRELIMS.
the storm is fast approaching.. this was just the mini storm.
haha.. but alas! at least there's be good weather for a peacful amount of days to recover before we start again.



so today i had a very strong urge to go out and walk.
after the paper went home to drop my things.. was supposed to go hunt of something with weijie and elis.. haha.. in the end UFOs kidnapped them.
so i went to orchard with my cam and had a ball of a time.
really.. everyone should try it someday, going out on your own.
its rejuvinating.. considering the last time i went orchard for fun was like a long time ago.
haha.. so i took a few photos, pampered myself with icecream and chips
and was walking through borders when i saw this book.
it was places you should go before you die.
OH MAN. when i saw it, inside i went click, hey thats what I want!
i seriously don't care if i'm married, have 7 kids, or a bachelor next time.
it is now my ULTIMATE aim in life to visit these place before i die.
haha.. its around 50 places i think.. but so far i've only been to 1.. grand canyon.. but that was when i was pathetically stupidly tiny! haha.. so it doesn't count.
let me share with you all the places. maybe it would inspire you to adventure too!



1. Ankor Wat, Cambodia
2. St Petersburg, Russia
3. Havana, Cuba
4. Wat Phra Kaeo, Bangkok
5. Grand Canyon, USA
6. Taj Mahal, India
7. Eilean Donan Castle, Scotland
8. The Alhambra, Spain
9. Aitutaki, Cook Island
10. Pyramid of Kukulcan, Mexico
11. Venice, Italy
12. Dead Vlei, Namibia
13. Iguassu Falls, Brazil and Argentina
14. Petra, Jordan
15. College Fjord, Alaska
16. The Temple of Karnak, Egypt
17. Rio de Janerio, Brazil
18. Taman Negara rainforest, Malaysia
19. Jaisalmer Fort, India
20. Galapagos Islans, Ecuador
21. Manhattan Island, USA
22. Lake Titicaca, Bolivia and Peru
23. Giverny, France
24. Ngorongo Crater, Tanzania
25. Santorini, Greece
26. Drakensberg, South Africa
27. Zanzibar, Tanzania
28. Makalu, Nepal
29. Lalibela, Ethiopia
30. Machu Picchu, Peru
31. Uluru, Australia
32. Varanasi, India
33. Great Barrier Reef, Australia
34. Ihasa, Tibet
35. Yangshuo, China
36. Dubrovnik, Croatia
37. Ephesus, Turkey
38.Shanghai, China
39. Samarkand, Uzbekistan
40. Killary Harbour, Ireland.



40 in all.. whoo..
i'm gonna love my life.
haha!
cheers.

post by joshua at 5:44 AM (x)

Greetings all, just arrived home.
here's what charmaine and i did today:
- buy balloons and streamers.
- blow balloons, hang streamers
- almost falling flat on our face.



oh yes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUA WEIJIE!! haha!
16 creeps up to you like a creepy creep. haha..
using alliteration to emphasize my point of the creepy-ness of 16. haha..
anyway, hope you had a blast today! i sure did!
haha birthday boy birthday boy birthday boy..
please don't take down the streamers/ burst the balloons till like christmas,
they are our love and expired air. gyahaha..
and do enioy the presents and little sweeties inbetween!



i think i'm on the verge of a breakdown.
i feel as if a sickness is JUST waiting for the exams to be over to run me down.
chest hurts like hell today, can't seem to breathe..
its still like that.. shit shitty shittums.
damn its pain..



emaths tomorrow.. phys 2 on thursday.. haha.. last 2 gruelling papers to go.. wheeoeoooee
sally sells seashells on the seashore.
lit seems to have been DRILLED into my head. wasn't too bad today the papers.
except maths.. oo... that was as if i was being slapped by miss yeo.
that was horrible, maths.
oh well..
i'm gonna prac and then to bed.
my chest hurts like hell.
cheers.

post by joshua at 6:12 AM (x)

The Flight.

The dust and sand swirled in mini tornadoes across the floor of the court. The goal posts stood on both sides, creaking and groaning under the pressure of Mother Nature's afternoon breath. Sanchos lay on the sandy floor and looked into the sky. Clouds seemed to be moving at a flurry in tandem with the gust of winds sweeping across his face. He seemed to be floating, but yet still rooted to the spot as he took in all that was happening. Suddenly there was a sound that echoed from the distance. It sounded like pebbles hitting the tin roof of old Mr Guan's abode when Sanchos and the others used to disturb him when sanchos was much younger. It sounded just like that, except that there must have been a pebble storm around to create such a constant rat-a-tat echoing across the empty village.

"Get up Sanchos. Now."

The stillness of the night was broken as Sanchos rolled across his mattress and sat upright, squinting to adjust his eyes to the gloom around. Where had the court went? The wind and the sand too had dissappeared though the steady rat-a-tat still sounded in the distance and seemed to be getting louder by the minute. He could see the staunt outlines of his father and brother, briskly crossing the little room and stuffing things into a bag at the far end of the matress. Suddenly everything became clear. It was time.

"We have to go now. Gather your things and wait outside in five minutes time."

That was the order that started Sanchos looking around for his little bag that Father had gotten him days before. Being a young boy, Sanchos did not have anything particularly important, and in those days in the village, football was the only thing the boys talked about. So soon after two minutes of quick deliberation, Sanchos dropped the bag and carried his football outside.

Father and Brother soon met Sanchos outside with their belongings and silently they crept through the village. Sanchos really did not see the point in doing so, since most of the kids had already left a few days ago, bound for a new life elsewhere, other kids to meet, and better fields to play football in. Their family was one of the last to leave the village, as Sanchos had overheard Father tell Brother days ago that he was "getting us our of here in a faster way." Sanchos did not understand what that had meant of course, but that was the beauty of being young; you don't understand, you don't suffer the consequences. Life couldn't be any simpler.

Soon the three of them came to the little brook separating the village from the sheep, or more commonly known as Kalda's Secret to the village children, due to the many secret caves and holes in the area. There across the brook was a battered jeep waiting for them amongst the silence of the sleeping sheep. They crossed the brook easily and got to the jeep. brother climbed into the back first to help Sanchos get on. When the both of them were safely inside, Father got Sachos aside to speak to him.

"Now i want you to listen carefully. The bad men are coming, they are coming with their guns and we must run away from them fast. Whatever happens, i want you to always stick with your brother. You understand?"

Sanchos nodded in mute agreement. Another law in life, agree first, ask quietions later. So within a minute they were off, the sudden revving of the engines scaring the sheep from their peaceful slumber. By now the rat-a-tats were getting loud, and by the time the jeep managed to mount the nearest hill, screams suddenly penetrated the night, and firelight started to dance about in contrast to the darkness of the night. Sanchos clambered to the edge of the jeep to get a better look, but it was too late. The rolling hills shielded the boy's eyes from the blaze that was burning below, and as Sanchos slumped back down next to his brother, soon falling back into a world of new friends, bigger fields and bleak innocence, the three of them took flight across the shadows of the night, away from the bad people, into a new life.

-Josh 9/06.

cheers.

post by joshua at 4:27 AM (x)

Yesterday was weird, but somehow the closure of a big bad nightmare i had for months on end since the start of this year.
no more misunderstandings, no more resentment, no more suspicions.
haha.. i apologise for the recent anger and foul language and such.
but having a feeling thats the end of that for a relatively long period of time.



to "you", yea i'm sorry for the misunderstandings and rifts that the both of you faced because of this matter. it wasn't what i wanted for the both of you, and i really do hope that she'll really be happy with what's going to happen in time to come. my apologies for the bitching.



to hydrogen peroxide girl's beau, if you understand, then i'm cool with it too. just live up to your understood "understanding".



many thanks to:
Jac. yes, somehow or rather you were the catalyst needed to solve this problem. thank you.



Joa. thanks for telling me what he felt back there. though he never said anything, yes we know he's shy.. well here's to better days. and thanks for listening out through all my vulgarities without fainting.



weijie. yeayea soon to be birthday boy. i'm SORRY to have disturbed your show. haha.. you can't kick anything over here! haha.. yea thanks alot for being there all these months of sickly depression due to such contrivences, and understanding the best in this situation. you know what i mean. so yea, i'll take your words of wisdom and GET A GRIP. haha!



val. thank you so much for understanding and not shunning away all these while though the circumstances seemed taut and sometimes "dilemmic" sometimes. thanks for not blowing your top at either of us for whatever matters and reasons that deprived the both parties of a slice of you. rest assured it'll be pleasantly different from now on, and yea, thanks for making me finally understand things that i wasn't too happy to accept at the beginning of this. what happened has happened and i wish the both of you the best and happiness in the time to come. joa and i will be here always! though she now has eyes for only a certain candy and i have to work on giving the both of you space as i wait for something to happen to me. haha. cheer up yea?



closure.
End of the drama folks.

post by joshua at 9:02 PM (x)

So i'm just a sidewinder.
GREAT. the day just turned for the "better"
yea thanks alot you who said that huh..
SO I'M ALWAYS AT FAULT WHEN IT COMES TO FREAKING RELATIONSHIPS HUH.
FIRST JOA's, NOW YOU.
YEA SO ALL THOSE IN A RELATIONSHIP OUT THERE LISTEN UP, GUYS ESPECIALLY.
DON'T LET YOUR GIRL FRIEND COME NEAR TO ME BECAUSE I'M A FREAKING CASANOVA AND I WOULD LIKE TO STEAL HER FROM YOU.
GOD DAMN IT I'M TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT.
ONE OVER ANOTHER OVER ANOTHER.. JOSHUA LIM'S ALWAYS THE ONE THAT CAUSES THE BOYFRIEND INSECURITY AND UNHAPPINESS.
SOMEMORE OF ALL PEOPLE YOU.
THE LEAST, VERY VERY VERY LEAST YOU COULD DO WAS TO FEEL GRATEFUL I NEVER DID ANYTHING A LONG TIME AGO.
YOU THINK ITS SO EASY TO SEE THIS HAPPEN??!!
BUT I DID, I WAS ACTUALLY QUITE CALM AND CONTENTED.
THEN YOU WANNA PICK THIS KIND OF FIGHT??
DAMN JUST LEAVE ME OUT OF THIS, I JUST WANT MY FRIENDS.
MUST I GET A GIRLFRIEND AND START SCREWING HER ON THE STREET BEFORE YOU GUYS BACK OFF??!
IT HURTS DAMNIT.

post by joshua at 6:49 AM (x)

Ahh finally, the peace, joy and bliss of the end of the week.
been waiting for today like some kid eager to chew his first gum.
well, happy to say that the bulk of the papers are completed,
its still left with 2 more "major" papers before we hit slacksville.
Literature and Physics. hmm. a very weird combination don't you all think?
anyway had chemistry today, really thanking the Lord that my hard "bite the bullet" schedule paid off.
it was not that gruelling, compared to other school's papers like RI or ACS.
though there was a VERY VERY stupid mistake made on my part in one question..
don't think that mistake is EVER pardonable, but hey, thank the stars at least i made that mistake during the prelims.
imagine if i did that during the os.
Actually i wouldn't even be able to imagine it, i'll be seething with rancour and rage. haha.



well, finally able to blog three-fold compared to previous occasions..
been really busy these past few days to be troubled by anything..
could have sworn i lost my emotions and feelings the past 5 days or so..
it has just been very mechanic..
apologies to the world here... i'm a robot during the examination periods = no life.
haha.. give me a week more.. and i'll be back, for a short period of time before "robot mode" gets switched on again for the big Os.
THEN........ hurhurhur.. i'll be free as hydrogen gas.. haha.. even a rendevous at 3 am is possible.
haha.. well, LIT is coming up.. shite shite shite.. gotta brush up on my use of vocab and such..
hmm.. like i complained before, haven't touched a tome for the past 5 months.
can you imagine?? not even a tome.... what more a pamphlet??



listening to Maksim play the piano now.. he's really good..
furthermore its raining.. really cool and calm ambience...
makes me all fuzzy and sleepy inside..
its a kind of feeling where you feel you're all logy, but then again you're still concious..
a partial dip in and out of subconcious kind of thingy.. haha..
maybe hot milo will help.. hmm..



well, lets see, to do today:
1. settle a few stuff for monday's happenings.
2. start lit (mamamia...)
3. try and fuse in physics if possible.
4. clean out the "dust that ate my homework" from under the bed.
5. remind carissa that her cute little "source As" are fundementally boggling.. if you all know what i mean.. =p
6. catch up on my new best friend, sleep.



cheers all.

post by joshua at 10:37 PM (x)

Ah a few papers down, lots more to go.
had physics prac today.
we were lucky.. it was hell much simpler than MYE..
BUT i screwed up one portion.
uahifuhuiasfbdbiubidhsfao!!!
screw it.. calculated value wrongly...
Damn... hoping that didn't do me in..



well, life's pretty much boring,
exams, lunch, home, books, exams
and the cycle repeats itself, like a woman's menstural cycle.
i would put it all down, but i have to run, still have 7 odd more chapters to go for bio.
sheesh.



tomorrow: bio and add maths.

post by joshua at 5:00 AM (x)

I apologise for the use of offensive language.
i really do.
i was just frazzled yesterday.



anyway, yesterday's papers were not bad i must say.
gone with ss and emath 1.
today's one was not too bad too. gone with EL2.
tomorrow's one i'd better be lucky. haha.
phy3.
well, tuition later,
cheerio!

post by joshua at 10:27 PM (x)

Today is so not the day.
almost running into overdrive and explosive.
screw the teacher, screw the barber, screw today.



Right so my hair is longer than his??
hello, miss "i'm-always-correct-you-just-keep-quiet" bitch,
use your fucking god-damned eyes to see that his hair is longer dimwit.
AND, its so not about the hair.
thanks for letting him go scott free and giving me the slip.
yea thanks real lot, like i need to waste too much time making a trip to the bloody barber who cuts like shit because i'm just too smart.
so much for demonstrating your "wrath" because you let a "oh-so-small-student-like-joshua-lim" talk back to you.
you wanna play, you got it,
no need a formal invitation for such games.
you watch your step.



p.s. oh and for the record, Madam "my hairstyle sucks", stop filrting with boys younger than you. it makes us sick. and do try to sue your barber or something. i'll pity him.



note, the above ranting was based on a TOTAL FICTION. no resemblence whatsoever. i was just feeling my blog needed a little primetime action.
cheers.

post by joshua at 2:55 AM (x)

2 More Blummering days to Armageddon......



And i'm peachy really,
peachy to the verge of wanting so much to gather as much people at the end of the year to have a mass witch-trials for our SS books.
SS is a whole mass of trival bovine excretion.
i believe to a VERY HUMONGOUSLY EXTREMELY LARGE EXTENT that we should trash it.
have i argued my point through?
oh i think so.
i've said my peace.



well anyway, starting to feel jittery already..
and its not even sunday yet!
damned daisy dolphins!
haha.. its unfair..
right, maybe its just bad expierience with last minute heart attacks.
well, watching i am sam right now, a nice show really.
haha.. slacking on the job i am..
i'm a sucker for good shows.
cheers.

post by joshua at 7:56 AM (x)

Being JAAWWWSHUUUUAAAHH!



Work sucks work sucks.
haha.. did a whole lot of propagandish crap today,
as known as Social Studies.
Had fun in ECP today studying with weijie and elis.
hmm.. that was swell, but i wanna play everyday!!! haha!
argh.. 3 more blummering days to the prelims.
haha... gonna be over soon!!! haha..
2 more months 2 more months..
haha.. i'm kinda high today. sorry folks.



cheers.

post by joshua at 4:48 AM (x)

60. Has it been that much?
wow.. i finally reach my 60th post here since switching from friendster.
haha.. time really flies.. or maybe i just blog alot.
haha.



well just gotten back from school.
had bio the earlier part of the day,
then lunched at some funky ice-cream palor and bakery with pak kee, naomi, jane, stanley, benjamin and carissa.
officially spent the last of my cash today.. wahaha.. going into savings to survive now..
tsk.. studying does require food stuffs and sufficient carbs you know.



tuition in a bit, now feeling mundane-ly lethargic.
well.. can't do anything much in these 20 mins..
off to the piano then, found this really sweet piece called "claudine"..
cheers.



oh! to all garfield fans, we should be happy for Jon arbuckle who has finally gotten liz as a GIRLFRIEND! haha finally!

post by joshua at 10:45 PM (x)

"Seeing summer in a touch of winter,

Feeling lighter with every step i climb.

Slowing healing, the heart with the splinter,

Its not so hard now, to find words that rhyme."

It just dawns on some how stupid one has been.

we try to look so hard, scope every situation, think of every plausable way out,

to find that at the end of the day,

the root and the answer lies in front of you.

DELUSION.

We keep telling ourselves, its going to be better,

something's gonna work out,

people's going to see it in perspective,

but at the end of the day,

what really matters is,

if HE wants it HIS way,

then His will be done.

simple, subtle.

not our will, not your will,

but his will.

i think i've just hit the wall and realise,

if i'd stop walking and listen,

if i'd stopped resisting, and followed,

things might have been better before.

I think i've just found my answer.

post by joshua at 7:19 AM (x)

Life's a smuck.
Personally i do not know what a smuck particularly is, but it seemed fitting for the sentence.
might be a new joshy-snazzy word coming up there.
right. with that done, like i was saying life is a smuck.
been cooped up at the esplanade 3 out of 5 days this week, biting the friggin bullet and shoving the whole physics textbook down my throat.
fruitful, i must admit, but tiring and definatly burning a hole in my pocket.
just like today, i can't believe i actually spent 4.80 for 5 pieces of chicken wings??!!
okay, they were nice and tasty, but i can't actually i even splurged on them!
man.. today i came to a realisation on a statement made by my senior a year ago.
"when you study for your Os, you'll always be broke."
a year ago i was thinking "ookayy.." but now, i totally sympathise.
so there, joshua lim is broke for the rest of the week. how cheesy.



right, so i was thinking,
i should probably start a list of joshy-snazzy ideologies.
hmm.. the things o level students do in their free time eh..
well. charmed's on now.. leo's about to die..
and piper's not gonna give in without a fight.
haha.. well at least she's facing the problem full front,
instead of running away like what others would do.
she's funky.



cheers.
what are you running from?

post by joshua at 5:39 AM (x)