reading helter skelter

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Well, behold!
I am still wide awake! the clock beside my bed says: 2:38.
God i'm so gonna have a very heavy eyelid tomorrow.
Just done with the movie closer.
Yes, its got Jude Law in it. No i'm not obsessed.
Quite confusing i must say? Din't really grab on much. Quite Lit-ty i must admit.
So, what has happened in the discreet, almost mundane life of Joshua?
Well, nothing much these few days.. stayed in the loft most of the time to get tutorials done.
Muse, Pen, Scratch the paper. Yada Yada Yada. The same thing as two years before;
Though, i must swear the feeling two years before was different. It was New.
Well hell, one year ago it felt, Apprehensive.
It actually felt, The Same yesterday when i did it.. God i need a girlfriend.
No, i'm just kidding actually. Things like that are not meant to be asked.
They are meant to be Given.
So anyway, the main highlight probably for the day was that i managed finally to get a neo-casual balzer for any so occasion that might pop up unexpectedly anytime in the year.
I thought it went quite well with the wardrobe, though i did doubt it quite a bit at first.
Well, you know, the usual cynical, dubious joshua. hasn't changed much now hasn't he?
You know, as we hit the third, or was it fourth? or fifth for that matter week of the year,
two things get very clear to you. The first one would be, God, where the hell are all my old friends? and the next would be, why the hell do i even bother?
You see, not meaning to be rude or to hurt anybody's feelings or anything, but really, what does it take to get a little appreciation these days?
I mean, i'm talking about this in a very subjective way here. In general, let me ask you frolics of the general populace, have you ever had that feeling where you just felt you were so under appreciated that, even a whale could have felt that hurt? that one where its pretty much not about getting the thanks, but its just not a blithering right feeling about it?
I mean like bollocks! sure we don't mind doing things and all, and we really don't mind not getting the thanks. But to that level?? i mean don't get me wrong, i'm not aiming at anybody here, but shut the frack up! haha.. its just absurd don't you think??
Yes, i just had THAT feeling.... for whatever the hell reasons i don't know.
And NO its not anyway connected to the past all you past linkers.
Its just a sudden moment. THAT was the main point for all you who missed it. haha.
I'm sure you've all had it too.
Oh my... i'm sure i'll do well for stream of conciousness.. or was it what that's called?
yea i learn well from my lit class.. haha.. its this poem where all it talks about is the poet's thoughts.
Very Random.
Might have acheived that today.
By the way, i want to play pool. Soon.
Any takers?
Oh and by the way, to answer the previous thought questions about where my old friends were?
Oh i sorry.. wrong use of grammer.. where my FRIENDS still ARE?
Hell, they're right beside me. Always.
Thanks Guys.
Cheers.

post by joshua at 10:39 AM (x)

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